"i shared a vagrant optimism that some of us were making real progress, that we had taken the honest road, and that the best of us would inevitably make it over the top. at the same time,i shared a dark suspicion that the life we were leading was a lost cause, that we were all actors kidding ourselves along on a senseless odyssey. It was the tension between these two poles- a restless idealism on one hand and sense of impending doom on the other- that kept me going."

Hunter S. Thompson, The Rum Diary